To my dear friend Matt,

I remember a conversation we had a year ago where we both said no one cared about us. We convinced ourselves that it wouldn't matter if we were gone. We made a pact to end our existence together. The pact thankfully didn't hold up. But now I look back and tears pour down my cheeks as I see how wrong we were. I see the grief etched in your friend's faces, carved so deeply that it will leave a scar to remember you by. For each tear you cried for the pain you beared, we cried them all over again in your honor. We laugh at the memorys of mishaps we shared and smile fondly when we think of your antics. I read your last post today and it brought tears of joy to my eyes and soul. You said that you know there is a true God and he is in control. I look forward to seeing you again my friend. You are missed so truly and deeply. I wish that you could see how greatly you were loved.

love your friend,

leah.

Currently Playing This Is Solid State 4 (Bonus Dvd) By Various Artists see related

if you're not feelin' the love...it's cause my puter's busted. :(  I'm sorry.  But i do love to hang out still so call my cell 920-540-6096 haha now all the scary people in the world wide web can call me and tell me weird things about their rabid monkey who does acid and chases squirrels while doing the hula on the subway....yeah or something like that. i think i need to sleep now. i love you all. g'night.

leah.

Currently Watching Stuck On You (Full Screen Edition) By Matt Damon, Greg Kinnear, Eva Mendes, Cher see related

I'm all out of words. Yet still they continue to flow. I am a compulsive rambler. It runs in my family...ask Jon. He'll call my house to talk to me and my mom will talk to him for a 1/2 hour.

anyway, does any one else think that McDonald's new adult happy meals are a bit strange? So what is the suprise inside? An adult toy? lol

leah.

p.s. thanks for the prayers my dear friends.

Have you ever been so hurt, so upset, so torn apart, that you throw up? That you wish you could close your eyes and sink into non-existance? I'm wishing so hard tight now that my head hurts.

leah.